holdyourbreath

…of course not really, but i’m beginning to believe that rushing around can make you super confused.

early today i realized that this weekend was going to be nice and that i wanted to be outside and ACTUALLY have time with my friends and i was going to wear white. and you know what is important about wearing white? being tan! so, i quickly scheduled a tanning appointment (as i walked from class to work) but the only time they had left was 5 p.m. well, i usually work until 5 on campus but decided that i could squeeze those extra 15 minutes unto tomorrow and leave just a few minutes early today.

right, so i get in the car only to realize that i left my salad (dinner for this evening while i work yet another job) upstairs in my office. i dash back upstairs, excuse my absent-mindedness and then run the 3 flights down yet again. i’m driving along thinking that i’m going to make it there just on time when i realize that my clock in my car says 4 p.m. now i think to myself wow, that’s weird. it’s definitely 5 o’clock. well, i’m not very good at changing the clock in my car and just assume that somehow i hit a button and it went back an hour. i even comment to myself on the fact that elementary school kids are getting off the bus… i think, wow, 5 p.m. is really late for those kids to get out of school.. but still i proceed to think that i must be right.

i arrive happily at the tanning place at exactly 4:00 according to my car clock. i walk inside and say hi i’m here to tan. and the girl looks at me and says, you want to go now? and i was like yes…when else would i go? and she looks at me with the funniest, quizzical expression and says it’s only 4 o’clock.

yes, you can lose time. i’m living proof. i’m always rushing - always on the verge of needing to be at the next location. is it senioritis? no, more like seniorstress. welcome to graduation 2009.

Alright - So a lot has changed since I last posted. Classes ended around the 21st of December and I went home for Christmas relaxation time. I spent an entire two weeks doing absolutely nothing but sleeping, traveling and spending time with friends and family. It was heavenly.

I bought myself UGGs to walk to my internship. I can’t believe I’m admitting that! I have to say I do recommend them though. They feel like soft pillows and keep your feet ridiculously warm in all types of freezing weather and precipitation… which leads me to my next topic.

January 3, my boyfriend moved to Chicago. Random? I think yes. My favorite things in life are warm beaches, Puerto Rico, sunshine… you get the picture. So, the idea of moving to Chicago or anywhere getting more than a foot of snow all year completely freaks me out. See, good thing I bought those UGGs. (more to come on that topic later).

I also started another internship in January. Messiah offers the best internship program/network I have ever heard of. The staff truly has your best interest at heart, and wants to work with you to find a place for you to learn more than you could in just the classroom. I started in February at JPL (http://www.jplcreative.com/). It is fantastic. They just threw me into the mix right away, which is super key as I get ready to graduate in May.

That should catch you up on my life.

This weekend is Valentines day. The boy sent me flowers - my favorites : ) and tomorrow I am going out to dinner at a hibachi restaurant with a few of my friends.. and perhaps the Mae concert? I’m not quite sure yet. Anyway, there are a million other things I should probably fill you in on. More to come later. Happy Valentines Day.

Sorry it has been awhile. I am slowly recovering from an incredibly fun-super-tiring homecoming weekend. Almost my whole family has graduated from Messiah, so whenever homecoming rolls around, you know there is going to be no sleeping involved.

I think my favorite part of the day is going to the alumni vs. current student athlete games. haha, they are hysterical. Everyone comments that the alumni will surely win - if they can still breathe when then run.

I also really enjoyed powderpuff and powderpuff cheerleading. The guys all make remixes of the newest pop songs and then craft provocatively-silly routines. (No really, I am talking about pleather and fake velvet mixed with Britney Spears and the Spice Girls…)

I’ll post pictures soon. Until then. Ciao.

These are my favorite things to do at Messiah as a senior. You should come over and check them out…

5. sit on the comfy couches in the library when i study
4. bake ridiculously delicious cookies with my roommates
3. make piles of crunchy red and orange leaves and jump in them
2. watch Messiah soccer games surrounded by the sea of blue and white (go team!!)
1. veg. out in front of the tv with my roommates and watch the marathon of “What Not to Wear” (haha, oh senior year.)

What is it anyway? I mean, I think I know because the word is tossed around so much, but I think I want to get a serious understanding now.

Alright, according to good ole’ webster, trust is “one in which confidence is placed.” Hmmm.. well that sounds about right. That seems to be a pretty important concept tho… to have your confidence placed in someone or something else. And what is confidence you ask? I found a few that I think tie it all together nicely… “faith or belief that one will act in a right, proper, or effective way, the quality or state of being certain, or a relation of trust or intimacy.” (pretty deep stuff).

And I think I need to tell you all of this to explain the name for my blog, “holdyourbreath.” I picked the title thinking about the specific instances that people find themselves holding their breaths…

First, when you are little and you go across a bridge or railroad tracks you always screaming to everyone in the car.. “HOLD YOUR BREATH AND MAKE A WISH!!” fully believing it will come true. The second is when something bad is happening and you are holding your breath hoping that the outcome will be okay. its like that omg i cannot breathe yet feeling or it might all come undone. And finally there is the feeling of holding you find yourself unable to breathe because of surprise that someone just planned for you… like a surprise birthday party, or Valentines Day date full or rose petals and lovey-dovey music (all planned of course by yours truly…with the help of your roommates haha).

i think i like holding my breath. because there is always something about to change, or you are wishing that it would anyway.

i think i like the wishing part the best because it means you are putting your trust in something bigger than you to make it all work out, and that something is God. and he is really the only one who deserves all of your trust and your confidence.

so why don’t you join me - come hold your breath and start wishing…

Sooo…senior year, what up!? I can’t believe that I finally made it. This is my first time blogging, so you’ll have to bear with me as I divulge into a million stories all at once.

When I moved in it just felt so weird. This is really the last time I ever have to do it!! Of course, I brought way to many clothes…(I tend to bring my entire wardrobe so that I don’t ever have to think, “Oh, I wish I had that,”) This year I’m living with 3 of the same roommates from last year and my roommate from Sophomore year. I am really excited – I love these girls!!

I wonder what its going to be like tho… This year I will be working a lot and interning throughout, hopefully, the whole year. I am a Marketing major with an emphasis in Public Relations and a million hopes and dreams. Welcome to my life : )