hello, good friend

I don’t know why I always tell people that I love the unexpected. You know, the interviewer prompts, “Tell me something about yourself,” and you say (on cue) “I’m totally a people person, and I just love spontaneity!”

(False. Sometimes I thoroughly enjoy isolating myself in my apartment with a few movies and junk food, and I flip out when I don’t have every life step planned to the most minute detail.)

“I can definitely roll with the punches. I’m organized, yet flexible!”

(False. It unnerves me to not know what I’m doing next year, month, week, day. Actually, at the moment, I loathe spontaneity.)

“I’m up for whatever life throws my way! I just love new opportunities!”

(False. Actually, I have a lengthy list of things which, if life were to casually toss them my direction, would trigger in me a severe mental breakdown.)

So, yes, this optimism comes effortlessly on sunny days when my hair looks great, my GPA solid, my employment prospects promising, my relationships intact, my future secure, and my finances stable.

But on those mediocre, borderline–frazzled days when the slightest wrinkle in my starched-and-pressed plans exposes its imperfections, I just smile…and fake it. Recitation breeds authenticity, right?

“I’m totally up for anything!”

Hello, kids, and welcome back to sunny Grantham. The temperature is 66 degrees, believe it or not, and I just drove five hours from home with the windows down. Guess I won’t need those 983741 sweaters I packed after all.

Welp, back to work. I don’t know about your breaks, but mine was a whirlwind of (positive) busy-ness, and it’s possible that I’m slightly more exhausted now than before I left. Funny, though, I don’t mind it so much. It’s liberating to be a mere semester away from graduation. (And the spring-ish weather certainly helps.)

On the agenda for this J-term:
1) choreograph Godspell ! (Come see the show!)
2) watch season 3 of “The Office” (I’d like to acknowledge my brother Tommy for giving a most excellent Christmas present)
3) take a road trip to the Jersey shore (ya know, I’ve only set foot in New Jersey once)
4) watch movies
5) bake food

Hm, maybe we should grill out tonight…? Actually, that’s a splendid idea.

6) grocery store trip after work